the muse apprentice guild
--expanding the canon into the 21st century




FIVE WORKS
BY MARIE KAZALIA

TONIGHT I HAD MY FIRST ORGASM IN MY RIGHT ARM

now I wanna play with the words-- how
having an orgasm with such a long extended thing
as my right arm
makes me feel like a man

doors swoosh open

a sexy babe gets on the train
big round breasts in a tight
beige sweater -- hippy as
an R. Crumb woman
drawn--erotic
an incredible sexiness about her
she blinks and smiles playfully
knit hat pulled down to her eyes

next stop doors swoosh open

then this she-woman got on
long black hair --jeans
and a powerful presence--everywhere
I saw them coming at me--
sexy women--everywhere
I was surrounded by them

the train a long arm

riding my orgasm home

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SHAVED HEAD
(FOR LINDA)

when I first hugged
her--I thought of
a robin ( even a hummingbird
crossed my mind)
the delicate bones
as armature
structure in the shoulders
--but then later--
it occurred to me that Id
automatically jumped at
exaggeration of smallness
for emphasis
even in my
own thoughts

that actually
feeling her
delicate thin bones
held lightly
in my arms
against my chest
more similar to what
hugging a Canadian goose
or a swan
might feel like---

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MY BRAIN, MY BRAIN

crystalline candy
malted milk ball porous
solid inside my skull

close my eyes
visualize
a pus-y mushy sore
needing inner healing
split in-two mucous-y

wanna cough cough
the snot out both nostrils

then my brain begins to glow
against my forehead
from inside
a sunset
solidified into a ruby
red grapefruit / citrus skin

swelling up a mushroom
confinement
against white
candy-coated inner
skull chocolate coated

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THE GOD GANESHA* WALKED INTO THE BAR...

lifted his elephant body
up onto the stool beside me
his thick trunk flopped
(into my life)
in my lap
I stroked the live thing
rubbed as we talked about
deep and powerful thoughts
I can not now
tell you what they were exactly
but his energy entered
me and would cause changes to occur
he told me -- and I said thats OK
change a good thing
even tho Im not so young
anymore Im still eager
to learn and besides
nothing will change
that should stay as it
already is---

* what I know about the god Ganesh, as he is called in North India and Ganesha as he is called in South India, where they tend to add the letter *a* to the ends of names and words: In the anciently written Mahabarata -- (Maha means great and barat(a) the ancient name for the land we now call India--so that Mahabarata means The Great Story of India)--Ganesha is the elephant headed storyteller that relates many epic tales of gods, goddesses, kings and princesses etc. -- In recent years, in South India, the god Ganesha commonly appears in colorfully painted 3 dimensional form, with both elephant head and body, placed at the entrances to smaller newer temples. Some people in South India told me that it is only thru Ganesha that one can gain access to all the other gods. After reading this poem, a woman recently returned from India, said in Delhi figures of Ganesh are displayed in all shop as the god of prosperity. Diane diPrima pointed out that Ganesh was the son of the god Shiva whod cut off his head and replaced it with the head of elephant, that Ganesh is the god of over-coming obstacles, and the lord of truth telling but also lord of making it all up, the images of Ganesh holding a pen and writing indicates he is the patron god of writers, and because of this Diane said she has a small figure of Ganesh on her desk at home and post card images of him holding his pen.

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WARM UP THE WORDS-- FIRST...

with rhythm
speak the rhythm rhythm
before the thoughts
the visions

get the rhythm
establish rhythm
rhythm the rhythm

then thinking meaning
stream in images
in the darkness
eyes closed... in the black

see eyes closed
flashing forms in the dark
glowing orange insects
pixel reds brilliant oranges reds
colors bugs twitch wings
looped repetitions program
patterns throbbing like life
like no outside vision
magic energy stimulates
these semi-living forms glow

open wings slightly close
new variations

the words wanted

now theyre gone
the words
I wanted to tell you

now Im done
now Im done